Ceciste - Happy to see you again

We are now at the Summer camp in Cape breton in Canada. I soend time in Canada one year ago but I wasn't in Cape Breton near the beach, I was more in Torronto and in the Quebec. I love Summer, this is the period ... a lot of pretty girls in bikini a lot of alcool, a lot of party, ... this is the dream of every boy with a normal constitution. I was at a pbig party yesterday night I was a little drunk and today I have a verry big headache. I take my breakfast, some bred with butter and nutella this is the breakfast of a king ! And after that, I decide to go outside. Adam isn't here, probably with Emilia, they are always together, it's verry good, i'm really happy for them, they are in love, this is great. I'm not ready for a real relationship but I'm happy for my sister and my bro. I walk in the city and finaly arrive and the national park. It's a verry big park with some games for the kids in a corner -i'm a kid i'll go their later !- and I walk all around the park. I take my phone and send a message to my sister "How are you ? I'll call you later I'm outside" yes,i want to talk to her about Naima my ex girlfriend. After a little moment a see a girl sit on a bench, was it ? Oh my ex girlfriend Cecilia and she won't be happy to see me ... I go near to her and sit on the same bench. I watch her with a big charming smile and tell "Hello beautifull, how are you ?" she would probably punch me but i don't care, that amuse me

After a couple of days going out with the members of my team and spending amazing time with Sabian, today was the moment for me to think about myself and continue to do a little bit of tourism.Cape Breton Highlands National Park was truly a canadian beauty. I was doing my jogging, ipod with with me and i was just running. Running was a good manner to me just let a lot of things going on in my head out and help me enjoy my journey on the canadian island. Everyone is so nice and how cannot you know be blown away by the beautiful nature...I ran for a couple hours since i get up this morning at 6:30 after sending a couple of text messages to Sabian, this guy was too much in my head and sometimes i dont know how to react with him because every single inches of my body want to be with him. I could see myself with him...I shake my head and finaly get to sit on a bench to take a little break. I open my bottle of  water when i get to recognize a voice that makes me really unhappy. I turn my head and see him, this guy...I laugh badly and said to him, taking a little distance on the bench: ''Wel well well, who i got to see here? The strip club was closed so you are looking to a poor girl to get to sleep with? Sorry not interested loser, how many time i will have to told you?.''. Baptiste, this guy, a ex-boyfriend but a lying bastard.

The Summer Camp is the place to go! This year this is in Canada in Cape Breton, I was here a couple time ago when Sarah killed herself. I thought I was in hell every day, I was in my bad circle and every day I wasn’t better, it was worst even if I was far away from my old life … my life with her. I couldn’t enjoy this country with all of this, I wasn’t good I made my job as a barman in a bar and I travel the Canada. Today everything has change, my sister is alive. I don’t understand everything but I know that she was in trouble. Today she’s in Boston, she doesn’t want to come but this is her choice. Our relationship is very complicated, I’m not really kind to her, I learn about her sex depravation with a guy under a table at the prom and I was very upset when I knew that. Who want a whore for sister? Can’t she respect herself? I’m not a model but I’m not that bad I made some mistakes but this is the life. I was in the park of Cape Breton and I walk around the grass. At this moment I saw her, she’s as pretty as I left her. I don’t really know which one it is because I slept with both … I was with … Cecilia yes and I slept with Ariana, she doesn’t know me and I don’t know, I screwed up I guess … After a big fight with Cece we broke up. And here we are. After her answer I know that this is Cece. I smile and sit on the bench even if she takes a distance I know she is still upset after all this time. She should remember the best and forget the worst …. “ After all this time you’re still upset against me ? Yeah the strip club is close it’s to bad but I needed to take a break an breath. So you’re in Harvard?” I ignore her wickedness and I decide to have a little chat with her.

When i decided to come to the Summer Camp it was only because i was excited to live a new adventure, to make new friends and make great memories, i was not expecting facing demons from the past. When i arrived from Europe, Harvard University was truly a dream come true from me because i was so happy to make my own decisions and not having my parents in my shadow watching over me, aware i could make bad decisions that would made the Liechtenstein Royalty in deshonour. Baptiste was the first guy i was so stupid to put my trust in. He was the first guy i date since my other horrible ex-boyfriend back in my country and god i was stupid to think that good looking guy was a exception. Our story was only 2 weeks old maybe before i learn he cheating on me a couple of times even with my own twin sister because he was thinking that was me. This guy was only interested to think with his dick before his head so how he could dare ask me if how was still mad after all this time. ''So sorry to hear you could save a couple bucks for a lap dancing. Yes Baptiste im still mad, you never ask why?!  Yes im at Harvard you idiot! Im in third year in Internationals relations with politics.''.