It's been 5 days. Already 5 days and i just couldn't get enough. I loved it, spending my time with the Quincy's, getting to know them a bit more. And most of all, spending some time with Septembre. Everyday, a new experience; trying to help people made me feel alive. I just felt do good. Tonight, we are trying to get more funds for a hospital in Ghana. I've been lucky enough to get to play with the children during the day, and now, i'll do my best to make their life better. Those kind of charity event, it's not the first time for me but, for once, i felt i could really make a change. Because i was there, i saw them, the kind of live they were living. It was hell. After talking with some influential people, i made my way to the bar and get a drink. Septembre was there. « How's everything going? » I took a sip of champaign. Definitively not the best but i didn't care. I mean, where were we, right? Can't expect the best for everything.
Life sometimes seemed way to unrealistic, that you had this vision of how your life would be your whole life, but then something changes and all what you imagined didn’t seem that important anymore. You always thought that having a good life, being rich, accomplishing a good degree would be what you needed. However, seeing life in Africa, in those small villages, where people had to walk miles for water or had little nor no education, it made you think that maybe your life wasn’t that bad. It wasn’t to be honest, you just took the wrong way. You didn’t have a lot of money but you tried to help as much as you could for the being here. Tonight you were in Ghana, and you had helped get funds for a small hospital. It was extraordinary seeing smile on people faces as you helped nurses. It could really open up your heart. But by the time it was over, you once again only felt emptiness. Sitting at the bar at the hotel you were staying tonight, you were sipping at your drink. Whisky. It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t the best either but it made you forget momentarily that here you couldn’t take drugs and this was the solution to suppress the urge. Elysia came to join after a new moments. You had invited her to come with you. She was one of your only few good friends you had at Harvard and it meant a lot for you. You smiled at the young girl, raising your glass. “I’m ok, I guess. Not so used to all the heat though. And you?”
I was just so happy that Septembre invited me to come with her in Africa. I've never been here before but hell, i've traveld. Well, usually me and my parents would stay in one of the best hotel in one of the more beautiful city of the world. Not somewhere like where i am right now. So i've never been able to enjoy what life can really be when you live in those cities. But here i am, living like those kids, without anything. Well almost anything. My phone wasn't working, we were camping; and even the cars could just break down in the middle of nowhere. Yeah, that was kinda scary the first time but now, i didn't even cared. I was just experimenting a new way of living. “I’m ok, I guess. Not so used to all the heat though. And you?” Yeah sure, it was kind of though with the sun burning your skin. Luckily, i've brought my suncream with me, and all of my clothing were light, and short. « I feel so amazing right now. This trip sure is one of a kind. But sure, the climate is really different from Boston. I'm so happy you invited me. »
Life was full of surprise. The most little thing could change our lives and transform. You were going to come back with a full new vision after this trip to Africa. But somehow it sadenned you about yourself. These people were happy with what they had, but you couldn't be happy with what you had, and you always wanted more, more happiness, when you nearly already had everything. You were greedy but did that make you a bad person? You had no idea. You were happy you had a friend with you as Julian didn't come because of his heart transplant. Elysia was good company. You took a sip of your drink listening to the young girl. "I'm happy you came. We didn't really get time to see each other during Spring Break, but at least we're catching up here."
I sooo wasn't looking forward to go back. If it was up to me, i would just stay here as long as possible. But i knew that after a few weeks, i would want to go back to real life. After all, i wasn't made for this kind of life. I mean, i've been living with such a high standard that i just wouldn't be able to change it. For a couple of weeks, yeah, i can live without all of my stuff but after that? And right now, i find myself to be such a materialistic person. But was it really my fault? No, of course not. Life wasn't fair, i knew that. I knew that all along. « I'm happy you came. We didn't really get time to see each other during Spring Break, but at least we're catching up here. » True. I wasn't able to spend some time with her during Spring Break even thought i promised her. God, i'm feeling bad now. Well, we did speak on the phone and she didn't stay a long time in Punta Cana so... But still i made a promise and i couldn't keep it. I hated that. « Yeah, i'm glad too. And by the way, sorry for not being here when your boyfriend... you know. How is he now? » I was really hoping that he was doing fine now.
Africa was magical. It seemed like a dream, like all this wasn’t really happening but it was, and for the first time, you seemed like there was something good happening in your life. It didn’t happen a lot, and therefor you were always sceptical when it happened. However, you wanted to do something right this time. Maybe it was to condemn all the sins you have committed. Life was so much more then you thought it was. Only you never really managed to see this. Africa somehow opened your eyes, but maybe not enough. You still thought about home, about your addiction, your disorder. These people you were helping were in a much worst situation then you, and they still sprayed their joy for life out. It could have been a dream, but it wasn’t and this only made you feel worst about you. At least, you had friends here and it didn’t make the journey so morbid. Elysia was even at the bar with you. She asked you about Julian. You didn’t really want to talk about him. “He’s ok. I guess. I don’t know. We kind of got into a fight when he came out of the hospital. Long story and complicated.” You sighed.
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It's been 5 days. Already 5 days and i just couldn't get enough. I loved it, spending my time with the Quincy's, getting to know them a bit more. And most of all, spending some time with Septembre. Everyday, a new experience; trying to help people made me feel alive. I just felt do good. Tonight, we are trying to get more funds for a hospital in Ghana. I've been lucky enough to get to play with the children during the day, and now, i'll do my best to make their life better. Those kind of charity event, it's not the first time for me but, for once, i felt i could really make a change. Because i was there, i saw them, the kind of live they were living. It was hell. After talking with some influential people, i made my way to the bar and get a drink. Septembre was there. « How's everything going? » I took a sip of champaign. Definitively not the best but i didn't care. I mean, where were we, right? Can't expect the best for everything.