Jude > It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair

28/01/2012

october 2013

“It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair.”

The bad ideas I had last year are coming back. I'm always thinking of it. I already know it. If something happens to him, I won't hesitate a second. Because I’m so tired of fighting. So tired. I fight against the unfair life since my childhood. I fought against cancer. I fought against death. And here I am, twenty years later. Still fighting the same exact things. Cancer. Death. Life. The people I love always leave. Dad. Mum. Aurore. Kyle. And there are those who did not leave the same way, and I can’t figure it out if it is worse or not the way they left. I’m talking about Roxanna. Apple. And Leandra who is doing exactly the same thing.
This question in my mind has already the answer.
Maybe it is my turn, to leave.

Jude

made by jazmine at atf

(Jude Montgomery)

Now I don't wanna close my eyes, see everythin' I ever done. I never got to say goodbye, I won't look back until it's gone. Everything that I try to bury and all the little deaths that set me off, I can't close my eyes.

28/01/2012

october 2013

“It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair.”

I am here, waiting, alone. I know there are a lot of people who would want to help me. But they don’t understand they can’t. Nobody can. I feel depressed. I feel like I can’t breathe. My son is at the hospital since yesterday, and I feel so alone. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to feel better. And I don’t talk about it, because people will worry and I don’t want them to be worried.
I just don’t want to be hurt anymore.
But I don’t think that’s possible.

Jude

made by jazmine at atf

(Jude Montgomery)

Now I don't wanna close my eyes, see everythin' I ever done. I never got to say goodbye, I won't look back until it's gone. Everything that I try to bury and all the little deaths that set me off, I can't close my eyes.

28/01/2012

october 2013

“It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair.”

Life hurts a lot more, when you die, the pain is over.
I'm a coward. But that's doesn't mean I don't love you.
I'm sorry.

Jude

made by jazmine at atf

(Jude Montgomery)

Now I don't wanna close my eyes, see everythin' I ever done. I never got to say goodbye, I won't look back until it's gone. Everything that I try to bury and all the little deaths that set me off, I can't close my eyes.

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