Jude & Aaron ✘ Talk to your dad. (flashfoward in english (a))

“Aaron ! Come on we’re gonna be late !” I breathed out, waiting for my son who was again, late. We had decided to have a father/son day, and I wanted to talk with him about a lot of things. With my work, I had not really the time to spend some time with Aaron and I knew there were a lot of things which happened in his life since the past few months. I wanted to know where he was with Cora, but also what he was going to do after high school. The time was running so quickly. My little boy, my baby was about to finish high school. I had taken two baseball tickets to see the Yankees in New-York. New-York was near Cambridge but we had at least two hour drive. “I will be in the car, hurry up dude !” I took my car’s keys and get out of the house before entering in my car, waiting for my son. I hoped he won’t make me wait too long.

I was running late, as always. It's not that I wanted to be, most of the time it just happened. “Aaron ! Come on we’re gonna be late !” See? I was terrible with timming management, and I knew that today I didn't want to miss the game. Dad got us tickets for the big baseball game in New York and I was really excited. It'll be good for me, to ease my mind from everthing that happend those last weeks. “I will be in the car, hurry up dude !” I I took my jacket and ran downstair, hurrying up and waving goodbye to Aylin and Mom. "Bye, see you tonight ! " I was happy to spend some time alone with my dad. So much has been going and I wanted to have his point of view on the situation. The more the time past, the more I missed Cora and I was starting to reconsider my decision. I jumped into the car and smiled at my dad. " I'm here, we can go! I'm glad we are doing this together dad, I've miss you!" I smiled at him, it was boy time!

There has been a lot of trouble about Aaron and Cora. Okay, I was not really happy with the fact that my son was in love with Andy and Apple’s daughter, but what could we really do against that? Nothing. Well, that’s why I thought and this is why I let him live his love with her. Teenagers are so complicated and I wondered if I was like that, so…mysterious. A day with my boy was the better time to talk a little about…everything, about his life. I was waiting on my car and looked at the door’s house to see Aaron getting out of it. I smiled when he entered, he seemed to be very enthusiastic for today and it was pleasant to see it. "I'm here, we can go! I'm glad we are doing this together dad, I've miss you!" I looked at him and smiled while I was ruffling his hair. “Am I dreaming or my son is being emotional?”. I started the car and left the city. “I’m glad that you are glad, because I am too !” I turned on the radio with an old band’s CD : well, not this old but it was a good band when I was eighteen. “So… what’s up ?” I did not know how to start the conversation, so let’s see what he wanted to tell me by himself.

Beeing with Cora has never been easy. Her parents were totaly against it and well, I could see that my dad wasn't so happy about it, despite what he said. But what I didn't expect was how hard it will be, NOT to be with her. I was thinking about her all the time and missing her like I would miss a part of my body. I fell my dad ruffling my hair and I reconnect with the reality. “Am I dreaming or my son is being emotional? I’m glad that you are glad, because I am too !” Okay, maybe it was time to stop talking about our feelings, I'm starting to feel a little bit uncomfortable. I roll my eyes as I hear the music that Dad just put. It's always the same with him, he's so sure that the music he use to listen to when he was young is still the best thing you can hear. Well, as long as it's not for the two whole hours, I'll be okay. “So… what’s up ?” I look at him and I know right away what he wants to talk about. We didn't have time to discuss the Cora situation and everything that's going on. " Well... I'm starting to second guess my idea to do a world tour. I don't know if it's a so good idea... " Well, that and the fact that I was afraid to loss Cora for good. I just couldn't bear the idea of her and another guy, just thinking about it makes me tense and wanting to punch something...

I was conscious that it was not really easy for Aaron. Roxanna was not his “real” mother and Aylin was not his…direct sister. I had always been afraid that he doesn’t feel to be a real part of our family. But it was not the case and I was happy to see that. Well, he and Aylin had sometimes some fights, but it was like all the brothers and sisters of the world. I knew they loved each other, even if they would not say it directly. The only way I found to ask Aaron how was his relationship with Cora was to ask what’s up. " Well... I'm starting to second guess my idea to do a world tour. I don't know if it's a so good idea... " I knit one brow and looked at my son, “Well, your mother and I always told you it was not a very good idea…” I did not like the idea that my son could do a world tour so soon. He was only a teenager, even if he wanted to play the big boy. “And what about Harvard? Maybe you could do your studies and after that, you will be more able to make this world tour if you really want do it…” I smiled, hoping that I could help him to change his mind about this travel. “But why do you think this is not a good idea?” I was curious to know what made him change his mind by himself. I was sure it was about Cora.

Dad and Mom are not so thrilled about my idea to go on a world tour, but I think it would be awesome. It will give me a chance to discover the world and to see how I can handle myself when I'm alone. Plus, I really have no clue about what I want to study in college, so I think it would be good for me to have some more time to think... “Well, your mother and I always told you it was not a very good idea…” I sigh. I know very well what they think but they seem to forget that I'm 18 and not a little baby anymore. “And what about Harvard? Maybe you could do your studies and after that, you will be more able to make this world tour if you really want do it…” It was easy for him, my dad knew he wanted to be a doctor. As for me, I just don't know. I'm terrible in English, that's a fact, but in the other aera I manage pretty well, living me with a ton of possibilites. “But why do you think this is not a good idea?” I'm glad my dad's back on the main topic, I don't want to fight with him about Harvard. " It's just that... I already miss Cora so much now that we're broken up, I don't know how I will manage a whole year withtout seeing her. At the time, it seemed like breaking up was the best thing to do, but I miss her so much dad... " I look at my feet, knowing that I said more that I wanted...

I knew he was a big boy now. But I did really not like the idea of him, making his world tour alone. He was maybe a teenager, he was maybe 18 but in my head, he would always be my little boy. I thought it was a good idea to travel, to see the world: this is something that I would have liked to do when I was his age. But it was maybe too soon. And who would pay for it? Mum and Dad obviously, and as we did not agree to that… it was just impossible for him to do it. I did not understand why he changed his mind because he really seemed to be obstinate to make it. " It's just that... I already miss Cora so much now that we're broken up, I don't know how I will manage a whole year withtout seeing her. At the time, it seemed like breaking up was the best thing to do, but I miss her so much dad... " I smiled a little and I looked at my son. I was right: I was sure it was about Cora. “You know…I don’t think Cora is an excuse” I waited for an answer but I knew he would not understand what I meant. “You miss her, okay. But if Cora and you are really meant to be together well… you will find each other. Maybe this month or maybe this year, or in two...five years. Sometimes you can love someone but…you’re not ready to live what you have to live with her.” I laughed a little, I was turning philosophical. “I don’t know if you see what I mean” Well, I was happy he changed his mind but I did not want him to think that making this world tour would make him lose Cora.

Truth be told, I woudn't mind waiting a few years before going abrod. But I'm scared. Scared because I have the perfect example of how life can be so different than what you planed. Mom and Dad were so young when they got Aylin and me, and sometimes I cann't help thinking that I ruined their lives. After all, I'm the first born, and I'm not even Mom real son. I don't want to have children and fell like I miss something because of them. That's why I want to go abroad right away. “You know…I don’t think Cora is an excuse” I look at him, not sure of what he wants to say. “You miss her, okay. But if Cora and you are really meant to be together well… you will find each other. Maybe this month or maybe this year, or in two...five years. Sometimes you can love someone but…you’re not ready to live what you have to live with her.” I take some time to think about what he just said. I think I see what he wants to say, but still, I can't bear the idea of beeing away from her, and the thought of her beeing with another guy makes me want to throw up. I know she's seeing some one else, but still... “ I know but I just want to go to her place, take her in my arms and kiss her. I know you don't like Cora Dad, that's okay, you don't need to pretend.” I look at him, a small smile on my face. " Wont' change the fact that I'm crazy in love with this girl... " I look at my feet...

Things were not easy when I was younger. Because Roxanna and I broke up one month after Aylin’s birth and we found each other only few years ago from now. This is why I told that to my son. I really believed that if Cora and he were meant to be together, they will end up together. Even if it was right away or in two months or one year. I really thought that everything was over fifteen years ago when Roxanna left me…and today, we were together again. We were a family. “ I know but I just want to go to her place, take her in my arms and kiss her. I know you don't like Cora Dad, that's okay, you don't need to pretend.” I looked at my son, very surprised about what he just said. “What? No…no I have nothing against Cora!” I sighed and looked at the road in front of me, “It’s just that… I don’t like his father and… I really don’t like when she looks like him…” I winced by this thought. Yes, I had a problem with the McDougalls in general but nothing against Cora particularly. " Wont' change the fact that I'm crazy in love with this girl... " I smiled a little, “Then, don’t wait that things will change by themselves like a jerk and just… fight for her.” Sometimes, I thought it was what I should have done with Rox. “But…what did you guys broke up by the way ?”

Dad makes me want to laugh sometimes. He thinks he's very discreet and secret, but he's not. It's so easy to know what he really think that's almost scary. For example, I'm sure he believes that no one knows he still can't stand Andy McDougall, and all the McDougall in general. But Ay and me, we just know the truth. It's the same for Cora, everytime she came home, he just has this strange expression and I know he's not happy. “What? No…no I have nothing against Cora!” As if... I sigh, showing that I don't believe him at all. “It’s just that… I don’t like his father and… I really don’t like when she looks like him…” Truth be told, I don't really like when Cora acts like her father. It's kind of scary... “Then, don’t wait that things will change by themselves like a jerk and just… fight for her.” That may actually be good advise. “But…what did you guys broke up by the way ?” Hum... I don't like to think about our break up, because I was kind of a jerk... But still, I can tell my dad, he won't judge, he's my dad, right? " I just couldn't take all this fighting any more. It was runing everything, we couldn't see each other without arguing and I just had enough... " And now I would kill to take her in my arms, kind of crazy right?