I felt so bad … Since this crazy day where a crazy guy decided to kill all of us! I was in Harvard this day, in the cafeteria, I remember every second, the screams, the explosion everything … And now I’ve been paranoid, I can’t help it, I just fell so bad, every time I go out, I fell like people want to kill me … Usually, I stay at home, I cry, and I wait till I stop and I go to bed. I hate to be like that, but I can’t go through it, it’s too hard … After lunch I just jumped in the sofa and I turned the TV on. I was watching Glee when Neveah came into the room. When I saw her face, I knew that she wanted to talk, except that I didn’t …
This morning, i'm worrier. I know my twins sister feels so bad and she and i are identical. From is tumor, i'm scarred to lost her, she is my sister, my life...Befor them, we arn't close relation, but now, we learn to meet.
I came in this room, and i find my sister on the sofa, i'm sit near her. - Hey... Are you ok ?
Neveah sit next to me and ask me if I was ok. The truth is, I don’t know. Sometimes it was ok; sometimes I just wanted to cry. Right now, I just want to be quiet and to not think.
“I’m fine I guess. What are you doing here; you’re not with your friends?”
Usually, she never stays at home; she goes out, has fun. Like a normal student. I did to, not anymore. I needed to talk to one of my friend, someone who understands me. With Neveah it was better now, but we are not best friend yet.
I see Joleen, and my heart is broken. I want to be here for her... - I'm with my sister, 'cause she needs to help... But... If you don't want me.. i can go out...
I was overwhelmed, it’s been days that I didn’t ran away of this house, everything was scaring me, people, school, even my friends. Neveah seemed honest, it was weird, I am not use to have her by my side, for many years we were enemies, guess things are different now.
“Don’t go” I answered.
I felt tears coming up and I tried to keep those check.
“Thanks to be here, I know I am a bitch sometimes, especially with you, just a habit.” I said with a smile.
It took us 22 years to become twins, our entire life, I won’t mess it up.
“7]]I thought about making some pop-corn, you want to share with me and watch the movie?[/b]” I asked her.
Since the Joleen's disease, I feel more closer to her. I stay with her and i bite my inferior lip. - Okey i not leaving you...
i'm stroking her arm and i smile again - You're my sister and i acted like a bitch... and i want apologize to you, I love you Jo'...
The Joleen's proposition fill me happy, and i accepted. - Oh yes ! What's the film ? I go to prepare popcorn, choose the film ok ?
i get up and go to the kitchen to put the popcorn in the microwave. When it's done, i take the popcorn out of the microwave and go back to Joleen . - Popcorn ! I sit next her and put the big plate of popcon on the coffee table.
Damn it’s so weird that Nev’ and I stay in the same room without fighting. I feel happy and confuse in the same time. Hearing her telling me that she loves me it’s so unusual but that is so good to hear.
“Thank Nev’ I know it’s complicated between us, but we’re gonna make it!” I answer by taking her in my arm.
She offers to make the popcorn, I check on the long list of movies that I had on my laptop. After thinking about it I finally made my decision. Neveah came back with popcorn and I annonce to her.
“We are gonna watch The Notebook! I know we already seen it several times but I just love this movie!” I say with a romantic look in my face.
I just love love stories, I hope one day, I’ll find my true love.