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 camilawild I thought you and I would last a lifetime and I really believed in our love. Even when you weren’t treating me the way you should have, I was always justifying your behavior because I wanted for us to succeed. I wanted for us to stay together and I did everything in my power to keep you. You manipulated me into thinking that you needed me in your life and that all of the problems we had were only my fault. I was ready to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders for your sake. But you never matched my efforts. I gave myself completely to you and instead of appreciating it, you took advantage of me. For you, our relationship was never nearly as important as it was for me. You enjoyed having someone always at your disposal, someone who would always put you first.  And when you left me, you never looked back, as if I never existed. When you first walked away, I thought that was the worst thing that could happen to me. Some may say I am exaggerating but the pain you put me through was stronger than anything I’d experienced before. It was even stronger than the love I felt for you. I felt like my heart and soul were tearing into pieces. I was even feeling physical pain—I thought I couldn’t live or breathe without you. Soon, I became a wreck of the woman I used to be. I was ruined and there was nothing I could do about it. It was simple—I wasn’t complete without you by my side anymore. You broke me and there was no one around to help me put the pieces back together. After everything I’d been through, after more sleepless nights than I could count, after all the tears I cried for you, I realized I was waiting for something that would never come. I realized that I was the only one who could save myself. I was the only one who could glue myself back together. That is when my path to recovery started. After all I’d been through, I finally saw my true worth. It was like I looked at myself clearly for the first time. I saw how beautiful and smart I was. I saw everything I was capable of. But most of all, I saw how strong and powerful I really was. So, instead of thinking of our break-up as my defeat, I decided to observe it as a valuable life lesson and I decided to make the best of it. If you hadn’t left me, I would never have known what love shouldn’t look like. I would never have realized that a man who could never love all of me didn‘t deserve me. I would never have grown to realize I was a victim of your emotional manipulation. If you hadn’t walked away from me, I would never have known my true worth. You tried very hard to destroy my confidence and you almost succeeded. You almost convinced me that I was good for nothing and that made me much easier to break. If you had stayed by my side, I would still be thankful that I had you and I would never have seen your true colors. If you hadn’t left me, I would never have known how much I could take. I would never have known how strong and brave I was. I would never have known that I was capable of living my life alone. I would never have embraced my single life nor would I have enjoyed it. If you hadn’t left me, I would never have become the woman I am today. I would forever be an insecure, little girl who couldn’t picture her life without you. I would never have become the strong, independent woman I am today. I would never have learned that I was the only one who could make myself happy and I would never have known that I don’t need a man in my life to make it complete. If you hadn’t left me, I would never have become the warrior I am today. So, this is for all of you girls out there. I know you think that you’ll never recover from the pain some guy has caused you. But trust me—you will. I know you think your heart is broken forever, but here is something that might help you mend your broken heart:  Mend your broken heart and start to enjoy life again Although you don’t believe me now, trust me—you’ll get out of this stronger than ever. Sooner or later, all broken girls blossom into warriors. And when they do, there is nothing that and nobody who can stop them. It is only when this happens that they grow to realize they should only fight for themselves.#brokengirlsblossomintowarriors #lovemyself #newme

     
   

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 camilawild I lost my faith, made my mistakes gonna find a way to make it easy i'll be better on my own, believe me. Pain I hold back, can't live like that I made my peace with all of the sorrow and now I'm livin' for tomorrow. Now it's me and myself, don't need no one else this happiness was always inside me but Lord, it took a minute to find me. And this freedom I found is worth a million o' you now and I'm puttin' all my troubles behind me i only need my heart to guide me. I'm a girl with a new face, and a life that's been changed you know. I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymorei was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore i was a little left out, but I'm not anymore 'cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore. I was a little messed up, but I'm not anymore i was a little locked out, but I'm not anymore i was a little far gone, but I'm not anymore yeah it's alright now, baby I got the cure#notanymore

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 camilawild i fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easily and care too much. i don’t understand the point of my life and i think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won’t. you know, the demons are back and stronger than ever. they are looking for a fight. looking to win. and this time, i might just let them cause i was crying again last night but you probably don’t care, do you ? you think suicide is cowardly ? i’ll tell you what’s cowardly. hurting someone so much that they want to end their lives. so it’s ok for you to hurt me but i can’t hurt myself ? fuck it. i’m a fucking mess inside. « i’m here for you », « you’re not alone » « you will always have me ». fucking bullshit. when it’s 2.30 am and the pain is so intense that i try to shut my mouth in a silent scream : i am alone. when the blade parts my skin, when the cuts get deeper, there is no one : i am alone. when the only real thing is the blood running down my arms : i am alone. so yeah, i’m sorry but i would rather die than wake up tomorrow feeling the way i feel right now. #demonsareback #imdone

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 camilawild fuck-you-all. #dontcare

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 camilawild spit me out like hot wasabi. lick me out i'm sweet and salty mix it up and down my body, love to hate me, praise me, shame me, either way you talk about me. #watchme

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